My condition is Pathetic and Donno what to Do??

My last evening of My Third semester End Winter break....dammm and i noways wannaa go back........:((((
I donno what i gonna write in coming up lines below in this but still i try to keeep ma composure and calm....phewwwww!!!
Firstly, i m this big short of thoughts n full of emotions that i wasnt able to think of any heading for this post ,hence copied the later part [Donno What to Do??] from song playing in background....Any Guesses....Ya its James Blunt's You are beautiful......!!!!
Firstly thanks alot to ma closest of the closest friends ,they in a way gave me a good cheerful farewell,this was really badly required ...thanku very much[and hey im not using word thanks rather really do mean it!!!!!!!!] . Dammmn!!! i still prefered to be the silent unmoved spectator full botheration about how to deal with upcoming days of Homesickness and unsettledness....:(( Sorry guys....I was not in ma senses 100%....so plzzzzz pardon me....next time i'll be all chirpy and all bla bla....Promise.....Blog ki Kasam!!!
OHhhhkkkk.....Now how were the holidays???? Hmm.....quite difficult to average the two sides of coin into one side...so holidays were normal with a bit of inclination towards better than ever before. And Y so??
Firstly i really loved the training part of ma holidays...200Km of up-down by Indian Tansport and then 10am to 5 pm unpaid really hard work....and the silverlining was the free unlimited tea-coffee and cost subsidized Meals....aaaahaaaa.....and then 'Would You Plz do me a favour trick ' to get the bus ticket via Ladiz line to make other million males standing in never ending 'Gents' line.....muhahahahah[devilish laugh within myself....again y??? are im not happy right now....so laughing inside only....huh!!!]
And then getting a Certificate of Appreciation [Nothing special the same old format with Name and College name changed and print out taken out...herezzz the Certificate that you sincerely screwed up your hard earned holidays..Bravo!!!.....ma fooooot!!!!] But still the people out there in IOCL Reasearch and Development setup,with all due respect to Asia's one of the best R n D facilities, were simply awesome....Thank you Sir ,Thank you Ma'm....
Man!!! the bus memories are worth keeepin life long....Once I boarded in an Intellectually bigtym rich bus....uffff.....the conductor and a haryana police inspector were having hot-talk on Brain Drain[but they were both in favour of it..so what for hot talk....some intellectual mystery i suppose..otherwise i cud have got the reason...no????]....then they were two guys sitting jus beside me [dammm that seat was for only two..so i was the standing among the three... :((].....they were discussing on Magalve Train mechanism....koooool[and i was like a kid who knows the answer and jumps n jumps raising his arms beyond limits when Teacher asks a question in class....hmmmm].......So i think its fun everywhere scattered...But coming to ma present situation I cant see it or feel it anywhere...You may be thinking[wat may be,rather must be] that i am over-hyping ma situation....haina???...but believe me this is not the case....i gonnna misss this timeee alot.....misss ma family n maa awesome god sent friends.....Love you all you only make this life worth living...cyaaaaa.....bbbyeee.....You all please take care.....I gonna take care of maself for sure....pakkkka promise.....!!! Changa phir milenge!!

and a small tear like substance tickled down ma eyes and deep breathe in-out ......phewwwww!!!![Common Gaurav!! be a man!!]
And there goes ma self-inspirational and Back-up .... motivational lyrics that i never forget....

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning

Alright now i realized something....one or the other day, I have to go back to pursue the studies to shape ma career n all bla bla....so what i gonna do now is to do night out today to make most of ma left over hours at home....Sleep a lot in train[24 hour of Journey for your kind info:((] and then will try ma level best to settle down and mingle ma self with College Life waiting for yet another awesome holidays to enjoy to fullest.........Becoz Jeena Isi ka naaam hai...hai naaa???
And here i play Peaceful Easy Feeling[by Eagles] ......ummmm !!!Gudnight!!![I started this post in evening around 6 Pm and getting over with it at 11:53Pm.....]